i won’t give up on us even if the skies get rough; i’m giving you all my love – i’m still looking up

Jason Mraz’s new album is streaming through youtube.  I’m holding five conversations at once.  One with a friend from college through facebook, one with my best friend in Georgia through texting, one with you dear reader, one with Jason Mraz, and one with God.

Ah, the things that run through my mind late at night. ::checks time:: well, it’s not even that late at night.  Only 10:30 now.

I’m frustrated again.  My earbud headphones that practically glow a blue-green color, died on me again.  I say again because this is the third pair of the same brand that I’ve gone through.  I haven’t even went through all of the little green rubber things that you stick on them! Sigh unfairness. Oh well. I guess I’ll live. :P  with only one ear working! Grr. So frustrating. Mama said it was because I’m the hardest on any pair of headphones.  But I really do take care of them!  And I don’t bend them in odd ways so that they don’t get shorts so easily.  But I need headphones that work because I listen to music all of the freaking time.

Which leads me to speak of Jason Mraz’s new album which totally rocks my toe socks off… If I had them on right now.  I should, it’s freezing in this house… anyway, that comes later.  Take a listen to Jason Mraz’s new album, ‘love is a four letter word’ (as offensive as that sounds, the music consists of happy, up-beat music that is totally without any four-letter words, excluding ‘love’ of course). Preferably listen to it with headphones that work.

It is so freezing in this house! Teehee, I’m home. ^_^  yup, school’s out for the summer before summer even starts.  Or maybe it has… it just doesn’t feel like it… anyway.  I got fuzzy slippers on, long jeans, a sweat shirt (that unfortunately is very thin, but what can I say? I’m a poor broke college student :P), and a fuzzy blanky wrapped around my shoulders.  I can’t feel my poor toeses, and the tips of my fingers might fall off from typing so fast and feeling numb at the same time. :P

I’m happy to be home. ^_^  we are planning on moving next month to south carolina… my daddy found another job which looks like it’s gonna be a good one.  I saw pictures of the new house… it looks loverly.  And it’ll be the biggest house we will ever live in! I’m so excited. WALK-IN CLOSET FOR MEEEE! Happy stuff. ^_^  I still will be going to Belhaven university next semester along with my older brother who will join me. :)

I recently had to say goodbye to some friends at college who I won’t be seeing next semester.  In particular, four Korean girls who were exchange students to Belhaven.  They really became amazing friends and I know that I’ll miss them so much next semester… it really won’t be the same without my ‘unnies’.  I really hope to go to Korea next semester and see them again.

God is good.  And every time something bad happens, I remind myself that everything happens for a reason, and that God has a good plan for my life.  I know this summer is going to be ridiculously busy, and bound to be stressful and full of anxiety if I let it get the best of me.  I’ll do my best to put in my best effort into this move and finishing my book, and glorify God in the process.  Please pray that as hard as everything will be, that God will be glorified in what we do.

Sorry it has been awhile since I’ve written. ^_^  I’ve been busy, and when I haven’t been busy, I’ve been watching tv dramas. (~_^)  I’m also sorry for the grammar mistakes.  I typed this all out on word documents first – and a lot of y’all know I usually type things out all in lower case.  So, word documents has only capitalized all that it thinks it needs to, and I’m fine with that, as long as y’all can still decipher what I say. ^_^

i also apologize if i rambled too much.  i normally ramble at night.  and i just decided that i need to type out what was going on on word document, so i wasn’t originally going to post all this.  in fact, i had to go back and edit out most of my entry when i decided to let the world know what i’m doing via blogging. ;)

please kick back and enjoy the song.  and then go to bed, because it has gotten late. :P <3

title from: i won’t give up by jason mraz

you – are beautiful! you – so beautiful! you – my beautiful! nothing better than you!

i’m. so. sleepy.  i’ve been terrible at going to bed at a decent hour these past few nights.  last week, i even pulled an all-nighter in order to finish a paper.  since then, i’ve been to bed once at a decent hour. like, at nine.  i think the lack of sleep is catching up with me.  i was excited about going home this last weekend (william and his dad visited from colorado! :D) and i was hopeful about getting some sleeping in, but alas! none. :(  so, with that said, i’m going to behave tonight and go to sleep. like, now.

title from: beautiful by beast

say oh, got this feeling that you can’t fight like this city is on fire tonight; this could really be a good life – a good, good life

the sky yesterday evening was s a fluffy, romantic mess filled with pink, orange, and purple hues.  it made me happy to walk in the crisp, cold weather from the student center back to my dorm… it was beautiful. i really wish i had my camera with me at the time, the sky changes colors so quickly! *sigh* anyway.

last weekend i was able to go home and see john in his second basketball game! :) it was exciting shtuff :}

because also it was the weekend before halloween, we watched ‘it’s the great pumpkin, charlie brown!’ and made our pumpkin shaped pizzas. :)

halloween itself was an absolute blast i had several friends dressed up like the scooby doo gang, ‘robyn the hood’, and i was a samantha american girl doll.  several people came up to me to ask if i was a samantha doll – which made me happy to know that my character was recognizable. :)  there was also a gal who was dressed as ke$ha and her costume was great!  she looked almost exactly like her. ;)

well, today was fun-filled. :)  i felt well-rested for the majority of the day (which is rare in my day in the life of a college student :P).  i got up at a reasonable time, did laundry, and cleaned my room.  then i went to a football game with my friends sunny and solhee!  our blazers won, 34-17.  let’s go, BU! :)

now i think i need to study… *sigh* i’ve had such a wonderful day and now i have to end it with studying. :P  but, i think it will still be fine… i’m going to cozy up with a cup of hot tea and listen to this beautiful song solhee showed me:

it is such a calming song and it’ll make me happy while i do homework. and maybe i’ll get late visitors who will study with me… yes, even though i have to study, i’m happy. God has blessed me with such a wonderful day and wonderful friends. God is so good. :)

title from: good life by onerepublic

you’re like the tide in the deep blue ’cause you’re always there when i need you, and when you need someone to carry you through, i’m gonna be there for you

can i just say there there is almost nothing in this world like making pumpkin shaped pizzas with your family, while inhaling the smell of some apple candle somewhere in the house, setting up ‘it’s the great pumpkin, charlie brown!’ movie, all the while yiruma’s ‘the scenery begins’ is playing softly in the background?

i’m home for the weekend. <3

title from: downpour by brandi carlile

you wanna d – d – d – d – dance? get your dancing shoes!

hello world. :)

i promise i haven’t totally disappeared.  on the contrary, i’m quite alive and well, although i’m also very busy.  school is going well, and i’ve been feeling more confident with my studying and test-taking.  i’m a little nervous for upcoming ones, but i feel really good about what the outcome will be. :)

of late i’ve been having fun with some new friends and catching up with some old ones.  hee, i really do love my peoples here. <3 :)

this last weekend was homecoming.  our football team won (GO BLAZERS! :).  the homecoming dance was fun too – although, because i did not have a dance-able dress, i went in a cute shirt, jean shorts, and black tights.  thus the reason i’m not posting pictures of that. :D  but, i do happen to have a neat picture of the whole party:

it was swell. :) i really do love my peoples here… <3

i started registering for classes next semester.  i felt so confused when i looked at the list of everything i would have to take!  there are so many conflicting classes with what i want to take or what i have to take.  it’s slightly frustrating, but it’ll all work out.

i’ve been dancing a lot lately.  it’s random, but it makes me happy. :}

that was a random statement. :P

tried out a new bible study thingy tonight, which happened to be amazing.  very moving.  they even showed a testimony from lecrae (an amazing rapper).  the music was also very good.  i might go back again next time.  it was a nice way to start off the week. :)

i also wrote my first short story for my creative writing class this last week.  i don’t think it was anything special, but i was happy to have accomplished my third ever short story.  short stories really aren’t my thing.  see – it’s so hard to put a limit on oneself of the number of pages if you really have a good or lengthy plot. :P

been dancing to this song lately. :)

title from: dancing shoes by aj

’cause when she sings i hear a symphony, and i’m swallowed in sound as it echoes through me – i’m renewed, oh how i feel alive, and though autumn’s advancing, we’ll stay young, go dancing

ooooh goodness.  i’ve left y’all for a week and two days.  there’s quite a bit that’s happened:

i played in the rain by the pavilion a few weeks ago…

i went to a waffle house for the first time with a study group.  good service and good food, even though the place was pretty ghetto. :P  here’s a picture of me and my friend, katy, at the waffle house:

my brother trey-boy visited over two weekends ago! :)

and then, best of all, i went back home over fall break this last weekend, which was fabulous.  i also finally got my hair trimmed, which is what i needed terribly. anyhoo, the hair stylist also flat ironed my hair which made me happy to posses model-like hair for the next ten hours. :}

i miss my family so much… we watched ‘it’s the great pumpkin, charlie brown’, ate festive foods, and i made caramel apples!  momsy had fall candles placed and lit all over the place.  so no matter where you went in that house, it smelled like pumpkins or apples.  i’m so in a fall mood!

well, today i did two stupid things.

(1) i dropped my computer on it’s charge cord.  thankfully, the computer slid to the floor more so than an actual fall, so the impact wasn’t too bad.  but i’m kind of worried about my charge cord – it was slightly bent and is still like that.  it still works (thank you Lord!) but i’m praying that it doesn’t get a short in it; i can’t afford a new charger, and i haven’t finished all my Christmas shopping yet! :-/ i’d appreciate lots of prayer…

(2) i dropped the heavy corner of a ten pound weight on the end of my finger. yeeeeeoowwwww! although that happened an hour and a half ago and i’ve had it wrapped in ice since then, it hurts. so. bad. :'(  i can’t tell if it’s broken though since my fingers are naturally odd shaped anyway.  dozens of little blood cells are peaking through the top of my finger.  please pray for me on that note as well.

anyway, i thought y’all would be proud to know that  continued my workout without stopping and didn’t cry until i was finished. :P

a happy song i heard the other day :)

title from: stay young, go dancing by death cab for cutie

when i was just a young’un i’m look but so precious, but now i’m grown up, so fly its like a blessing, but i can’t have a man look at me for five seconds without be feeling insecure. see you had a lot of crooks tryna steal my heart, never really had luck, couldn’t never figure out how to love…

title from: how to love by lil wayne

radio, radio – tell me what i wanna know, wanna know; i’ve been wide awake, stayin’ up all night, waiting for a song that’ll make me feel alright

just because i  have all the time in the world, i came up with a list of things i’ve learned at college so far.  please understand, that these will most definitely not contain the scholastic things i’ve learned.  so please be entertained, take notes, take to heart, or just totally blow it all off.  but please take note that i’ve worked hard on this slightly time-consuming piece – it was an effort me to put personal thought into all of these. :D no really,  i’m serious. :}
  1. food get’s old after the second week.  cafeteria food.  the bets part about it is the ice cream. :}
  2. it’s better to be ‘perfectly lonely’. (<3s for john mayer)
  3. piano in a busy place makes for magical moments.
  4. after about a month, you want to eat food other than salad.  *please don’t go splurge…*
  5. comparing people to movie stars or story characters is common.  ‘hey, that teacher looks like george lucas…’
  6. sometimes a girl get’s more eyes than she’d like.  the guy who looks at you doesn’t want to be your friend. keep it that way. :P
  7. the best guy friends are the ones who want to be your friend, and the ones you can compare to your own crazy brothers. :P
  8. the best girl friends are your confidants after the first week of knowing each other, and will hug you even when you’re sick.
  9. the best friends back up and respect your morals and boundaries, even around their other friends.
  10. you realize your lack of new clothes.  ‘i have nothing to wear!  everybody has seen me in those already!’ ;)
  11. the best part of the week is when it’s time to play in the fountain. ‘any security guards around…?’ :D
  12. the best class really isn’t class to you just because it’s that fun.  (creative writing is the best!)
  13. good teaching affects you to the point that you do homework for fun.
  14. headphones are so in.  um, literally. :P
  15. to not be quick to judge.  everybody’s different, accept them that way.  stereotypes suck.
  16. roach reunions are common.  especially in the hallways and bathroom. *shudders*
  17. the gentleman will walk you home.
  18. go barefoot only outside – not in a public building.
  19. red hair dye is common.  (just not in my hair :P)
  20. you can tell when it’s people’s ‘comfy’ days. ‘woot! sweatpants and no makeup!’
  21. religious organizational groups are popular, but few people pay attention to what’s being said.  (the only time they’re a saint is when they’re at small group)
  22. it’s easier to realize how small you are in a place so big.  ‘mommy…? :-/’
  23. a good friend will ask you how you are and then ask you to define ‘fine’. (and ‘not fine’ is responded with a hug :)
  24. to praise people for good and decent taste in clothes. ‘love your shirt! hey, your pants are pulled up today!’ ;)
  25. don’t dis any form of philosophical point of view.  just ’cause it’s a place diverse in opinion don’t mean they’re okay with it. :P
  26. don’t laugh if you don’t think it’s funny.  ‘get a hint, people. being crass ain’t nice.’
  27. don’t be in a secluded group of people you are uncomfortable with.  *run away…*
  28. if someone picks on you, be silent and leave, and your friends will defend you, even if you don’t know about it. :)
  29. observe peoples around you in the student center if you like to study character – you’ll meet a lot of it. :P
  30. if you’re serious about your faith, stick up for it.
  31. there is absolutely no privacy for a phone conversation on campus.
  32. contact the ones you love as much as possible.  you won’t regret it, of course. :)
  33. never ignore a ‘hello’ or smile.
  34. give everybody a smile – it makes a happier day for both of y’all. :}
  35. don’t ever jump to conclusions – but don’t leave issues hanging.  ‘sooo… what’d that mean?’
  36. make the most out of the time with your friends.  sometimes you just have no idea where to start looking on campus. :P
  37. make sure to wash your dishes after using them.  it’s like concrete after two days. :P
  38. try to keep up with your laundry.  don’t learn that the hard way.
  39. bookshop items are expensive.
  40. God is amazing and epic.  live like you know it. ’cause, you know – you kinda do.
  41. give people a chance to change. ‘strike one… strike two…’
  42. love your guy friends, but don’t mislead them.  (and straight up, don’t flirt. it’s annoying when you witness it anyway. :P)
  43. have fun in every situation – even if it means getting a little crazy. (yawoot ;)
  44. live without regrets.  life’s always good – just make sure to keep things in perspective.
  45. keep a positive attitude – you have no idea how it might impact someone.
  46. hugs are the best gifts in the whole wide world. <3
  47. stay innocent and vulnerable, despite what’s offered to me.  ‘shun the bad movies! shun the conversation! shunnn…’
  48. to not regret saying ‘no’ when it’s the best thing for me.  (remember, your momsy and daddy would be proud :)
  49. don’t hide, but don’t yell, “I’M OVER HERE!” blending in is lame and sticking out is like a sore thumb. :P
  50. love all people, and work on loving the ones hardest to love.
  51. live life loving it! or at least try… :}
so, this is what i’ve learned.  a lot of it is out of observation (i’m a writer, remember?) and some of it is personal experience (don’t worry, momsy, i meant it when i said that calling people is great :).  so i’m definitely not blowing any hot air. :P
oh, and one last word of wisdom:
  1. happy dancing and tap dancing rocks, especially in a random spot.  tap dancing is doubly great.  especially when you don’t actually know how to do it. at all.
title from: radio by brooke white

rain, rain go away, come again another day – all the world is waiting for the sun.

title from: rain by breaking benjamin

i don’t want wanna be nobody’s fool – i’ve played that part so many times before; how long to be a shadow on the wall? i will make no sound at all, and when the sun goes down, the shadow on the wall – it cannot be seen at all

hello void. :)

maybe because i’ve suddenly been thrown into the busy, social world of going to school, i want more of it. eh, the social – not the school. ;)  i’ve been getting a lot lonelier faster than i should, i mean.  i had made a few really good friends here and have been lame enough to not try to make anymore friends.  which was/is wrong.  even though it is hard for me to make new friends, i really shouldn’t use that as an excuse while my other friends make friends.  i am happy and content with the peoples i have – not saying that’s a problem – but i’ve shied away from meeting new people.  which isn’t cool, peoples.

and now when my friends are with their friends (not saying that i’m not their friend, they’ve got to make time for them all), i start to feel… lonely (duh).  i hate being selfish.  that’s a big one i’m going to have to work on.  that and being outspoken enough to hug the whole school without feeling embarrassed.  where did that girl go? the one who wanted to be friends with the whole school? the one now who sits shy and quiet in the corner of the world, afraid to shine the light God gave her?

oh bob.  my nose is excessively stuffy tonight.  which doesn’t make for an attractive speaker.  and my nose has been running.  i’m definitely not a ‘looker’.  i don’t have a fever anymore, but my sinuses, oooh my sinuses…

i was studying in the student center (that was past tense, folks ;).  but after the people quieted and left, after piano playing stopped, it was like a spell had been broken.  i’m sitting in a big empty place.  people walk in and out.  but it’s so quiet… it’s so much easier to study with a hum of busy, laughing, swearing (it’s not like you can hear it amid the rest of the chaos, but it’s pretty darn constant :P) people.

this moment is just one of those moments i miss all of my family and friends, and wish that it was christmas vacation.  three months left.

epic quote of the night from meg ryan’s character kathleen kelly from you’ve got mail:

sometimes i wonder about my life. i lead a small life. well, not small, but valuable. and sometimes i wonder, do i do it because i like it, or because i haven’t been brave? so much of what i see reminds me of something i read in a book, when shouldn’t it be the other way around? i don’t really want an answer. i just want to send this cosmic question out into the void. so good night, dear void.

title from: shadow on the wall by brandi carlile

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