when i was just a young’un i’m look but so precious, but now i’m grown up, so fly its like a blessing, but i can’t have a man look at me for five seconds without be feeling insecure. see you had a lot of crooks tryna steal my heart, never really had luck, couldn’t never figure out how to love…

title from: how to love by lil wayne
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radio, radio – tell me what i wanna know, wanna know; i’ve been wide awake, stayin’ up all night, waiting for a song that’ll make me feel alright

just because i  have all the time in the world, i came up with a list of things i’ve learned at college so far.  please understand, that these will most definitely not contain the scholastic things i’ve learned.  so please be entertained, take notes, take to heart, or just totally blow it all off.  but please take note that i’ve worked hard on this slightly time-consuming piece – it was an effort me to put personal thought into all of these. :D no really,  i’m serious. :}
  1. food get’s old after the second week.  cafeteria food.  the bets part about it is the ice cream. :}
  2. it’s better to be ‘perfectly lonely’. (<3s for john mayer)
  3. piano in a busy place makes for magical moments.
  4. after about a month, you want to eat food other than salad.  *please don’t go splurge…*
  5. comparing people to movie stars or story characters is common.  ‘hey, that teacher looks like george lucas…’
  6. sometimes a girl get’s more eyes than she’d like.  the guy who looks at you doesn’t want to be your friend. keep it that way. :P
  7. the best guy friends are the ones who want to be your friend, and the ones you can compare to your own crazy brothers. :P
  8. the best girl friends are your confidants after the first week of knowing each other, and will hug you even when you’re sick.
  9. the best friends back up and respect your morals and boundaries, even around their other friends.
  10. you realize your lack of new clothes.  ‘i have nothing to wear!  everybody has seen me in those already!’ ;)
  11. the best part of the week is when it’s time to play in the fountain. ‘any security guards around…?’ :D
  12. the best class really isn’t class to you just because it’s that fun.  (creative writing is the best!)
  13. good teaching affects you to the point that you do homework for fun.
  14. headphones are so in.  um, literally. :P
  15. to not be quick to judge.  everybody’s different, accept them that way.  stereotypes suck.
  16. roach reunions are common.  especially in the hallways and bathroom. *shudders*
  17. the gentleman will walk you home.
  18. go barefoot only outside – not in a public building.
  19. red hair dye is common.  (just not in my hair :P)
  20. you can tell when it’s people’s ‘comfy’ days. ‘woot! sweatpants and no makeup!’
  21. religious organizational groups are popular, but few people pay attention to what’s being said.  (the only time they’re a saint is when they’re at small group)
  22. it’s easier to realize how small you are in a place so big.  ‘mommy…? :-/’
  23. a good friend will ask you how you are and then ask you to define ‘fine’. (and ‘not fine’ is responded with a hug :)
  24. to praise people for good and decent taste in clothes. ‘love your shirt! hey, your pants are pulled up today!’ ;)
  25. don’t dis any form of philosophical point of view.  just ’cause it’s a place diverse in opinion don’t mean they’re okay with it. :P
  26. don’t laugh if you don’t think it’s funny.  ‘get a hint, people. being crass ain’t nice.’
  27. don’t be in a secluded group of people you are uncomfortable with.  *run away…*
  28. if someone picks on you, be silent and leave, and your friends will defend you, even if you don’t know about it. :)
  29. observe peoples around you in the student center if you like to study character – you’ll meet a lot of it. :P
  30. if you’re serious about your faith, stick up for it.
  31. there is absolutely no privacy for a phone conversation on campus.
  32. contact the ones you love as much as possible.  you won’t regret it, of course. :)
  33. never ignore a ‘hello’ or smile.
  34. give everybody a smile – it makes a happier day for both of y’all. :}
  35. don’t ever jump to conclusions – but don’t leave issues hanging.  ‘sooo… what’d that mean?’
  36. make the most out of the time with your friends.  sometimes you just have no idea where to start looking on campus. :P
  37. make sure to wash your dishes after using them.  it’s like concrete after two days. :P
  38. try to keep up with your laundry.  don’t learn that the hard way.
  39. bookshop items are expensive.
  40. God is amazing and epic.  live like you know it. ’cause, you know – you kinda do.
  41. give people a chance to change. ‘strike one… strike two…’
  42. love your guy friends, but don’t mislead them.  (and straight up, don’t flirt. it’s annoying when you witness it anyway. :P)
  43. have fun in every situation – even if it means getting a little crazy. (yawoot ;)
  44. live without regrets.  life’s always good – just make sure to keep things in perspective.
  45. keep a positive attitude – you have no idea how it might impact someone.
  46. hugs are the best gifts in the whole wide world. <3
  47. stay innocent and vulnerable, despite what’s offered to me.  ‘shun the bad movies! shun the conversation! shunnn…’
  48. to not regret saying ‘no’ when it’s the best thing for me.  (remember, your momsy and daddy would be proud :)
  49. don’t hide, but don’t yell, “I’M OVER HERE!” blending in is lame and sticking out is like a sore thumb. :P
  50. love all people, and work on loving the ones hardest to love.
  51. live life loving it! or at least try… :}
so, this is what i’ve learned.  a lot of it is out of observation (i’m a writer, remember?) and some of it is personal experience (don’t worry, momsy, i meant it when i said that calling people is great :).  so i’m definitely not blowing any hot air. :P
oh, and one last word of wisdom:
  1. happy dancing and tap dancing rocks, especially in a random spot.  tap dancing is doubly great.  especially when you don’t actually know how to do it. at all.
title from: radio by brooke white

rain, rain go away, come again another day – all the world is waiting for the sun.

title from: rain by breaking benjamin

i don’t want wanna be nobody’s fool – i’ve played that part so many times before; how long to be a shadow on the wall? i will make no sound at all, and when the sun goes down, the shadow on the wall – it cannot be seen at all

hello void. :)

maybe because i’ve suddenly been thrown into the busy, social world of going to school, i want more of it. eh, the social – not the school. ;)  i’ve been getting a lot lonelier faster than i should, i mean.  i had made a few really good friends here and have been lame enough to not try to make anymore friends.  which was/is wrong.  even though it is hard for me to make new friends, i really shouldn’t use that as an excuse while my other friends make friends.  i am happy and content with the peoples i have – not saying that’s a problem – but i’ve shied away from meeting new people.  which isn’t cool, peoples.

and now when my friends are with their friends (not saying that i’m not their friend, they’ve got to make time for them all), i start to feel… lonely (duh).  i hate being selfish.  that’s a big one i’m going to have to work on.  that and being outspoken enough to hug the whole school without feeling embarrassed.  where did that girl go? the one who wanted to be friends with the whole school? the one now who sits shy and quiet in the corner of the world, afraid to shine the light God gave her?

oh bob.  my nose is excessively stuffy tonight.  which doesn’t make for an attractive speaker.  and my nose has been running.  i’m definitely not a ‘looker’.  i don’t have a fever anymore, but my sinuses, oooh my sinuses…

i was studying in the student center (that was past tense, folks ;).  but after the people quieted and left, after piano playing stopped, it was like a spell had been broken.  i’m sitting in a big empty place.  people walk in and out.  but it’s so quiet… it’s so much easier to study with a hum of busy, laughing, swearing (it’s not like you can hear it amid the rest of the chaos, but it’s pretty darn constant :P) people.

this moment is just one of those moments i miss all of my family and friends, and wish that it was christmas vacation.  three months left.

epic quote of the night from meg ryan’s character kathleen kelly from you’ve got mail:

sometimes i wonder about my life. i lead a small life. well, not small, but valuable. and sometimes i wonder, do i do it because i like it, or because i haven’t been brave? so much of what i see reminds me of something i read in a book, when shouldn’t it be the other way around? i don’t really want an answer. i just want to send this cosmic question out into the void. so good night, dear void.

title from: shadow on the wall by brandi carlile

blessed words we speak again of the words to do, my friend; for us to live in this dark garden of eden

The Enemies of God (and His People) Defeated

It is a good thing to thank God that such a scourge has been ended – even terminated. When Jesus speaks of turning the other cheek, He is speaking of personal offenses against us individually, not a sovereign nation. Psalm 83 is a perfect example of praying for divine retribution against the enemies of Israel. Bin Laden was an enemy of the world – including Israel. Christians can rejoice as David did over the defeat of their enemies. In heaven, we will delight in God’s justice. Why not now over so blatant an enemy of God and His people, as well as the rest of the world?

The civil magistrates have been ordained by God for the preservation of peace and the punishment of the evildoers, “for he (the civil authority) is the servant of God, an avenger who carries out God’s wrath on the wrongdoer.”  (Romans 13:1-7)  Though some may grieve over the death of a human being, it is important to remember the countless unjust deaths people like Bin Laden are responsible for.

When David’s enemy (Absolom) was defeated and he went into grieving over it, Joab rightly counseled David to rejoice that his enemy had been defeated, lest he lose support from those who worked so hard to protect him.  Let us not spurn God’s delivering grace on the free (and Christians) world by being critical of His deliverance.

written after the news of osama bin laden’s death, written by my daddy. :)

title from: is love enough? by michael franti and spearhead

a light dawned that sunday morning, it broke through the boundaries of time; hearts start shining, calling to all mankind; let’s celebrate eternal life!

Matthew 28:1-8

1 After the Sabbath, at dawn on the first day of the week, Mary Magdalene and the other Mary went to look at the tomb.

 2 There was a violent earthquake, for an angel of the Lord came down from heaven and, going to the tomb, rolled back the stone and sat on it. 3 His appearance was like lightning, and his clothes were white as snow. 4 The guards were so afraid of him that they shook and became like dead men.

5 The angel said to the women, “Do not be afraid, for I know that you are looking for Jesus, who was crucified. 6 He is not here; he has risen, just as he said. Come and see the place where he lay. 7 Then go quickly and tell his disciples: ‘He has risen from the dead and is going ahead of you into Galilee. There you will see him.’ Now I have told you.”

8 So the women hurried away from the tomb, afraid yet filled with joy, and ran to tell his disciples.

John 20:11-17

11 Now Mary stood outside the tomb crying. As she wept, she bent over to look into the tomb 12 and saw two angels in white, seated where Jesus’ body had been, one at the head and the other at the foot.

13 They asked her, “Woman, why are you crying?”

“They have taken my Lord away,” she said, “and I don’t know where they have put him.” 14 At this, she turned around and saw Jesus standing there, but she did not realize that it was Jesus.

15 He asked her, “Woman, why are you crying? Who is it you are looking for?”

Thinking he was the gardener, she said, “Sir, if you have carried him away, tell me where you have put him, and I will get him.”

16 Jesus said to her, “Mary.”

She turned toward him and cried out in Aramaic, “Rabboni!” (which means “Teacher”).

17 Jesus said, “Do not hold on to me, for I have not yet ascended to the Father. Go instead to my brothers and tell them, ‘I am ascending to my Father and your Father, to my God and your God.’”

Matthew 28:9-20

9Suddenly Jesus met them. “Greetings,” he said. They came to him, clasped his feet and worshiped him. 10Then Jesus said to them, “Do not be afraid. Go and tell my brothers to go to Galilee; there they will see me.”

 11 While the women were on their way, some of the guards went into the city and reported to the chief priests everything that had happened. 12 When the chief priests had met with the elders and devised a plan, they gave the soldiers a large sum of money, 13 telling them, “You are to say, ‘His disciples came during the night and stole him away while we were asleep.’ 14 If this report gets to the governor, we will satisfy him and keep you out of trouble.” 15 So the soldiers took the money and did as they were instructed. And this story has been widely circulated among the Jews to this very day.

16 Then the eleven disciples went to Galilee, to the mountain where Jesus had told them to go. 17 When they saw him, they worshiped him; but some doubted. 18 Then Jesus came to them and said, “All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. 19 Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, 20 and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.”

1st Corinthians 15:17

And if Christ is not risen, your faith is futile; you are still in your sins!

1st Corinthians 15:55-57

55 “Where, O death, is your victory?
Where, O death, is your sting?”

56 The sting of death is sin, and the power of sin is the law. 57 But thanks be to God! He gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.

He is risen! :)

happy resurrection sunday!

title from: resurrection dance 2010 by uptofaith

stricken, smitten, and afflicted, see Him dying on the tree! ’tis the Christ by man rejected; yes, my soul, ’tis He, ’tis He! ’tis the long-expected prophet, david’s Son, yet david’s Lord; by his Son, God now has spoken; tis the true and faithful Word.

please watch the video and continue reading.

Matthew 26:36-56

36 Then Jesus went with his disciples to a place called Gethsemane, and he said to them, “Sit here while I go over there and pray.” 37 He took Peter and the two sons of Zebedee along with him, and he began to be sorrowful and troubled. 38 Then he said to them, “My soul is overwhelmed with sorrow to the point of death. Stay here and keep watch with me.”

 39 Going a little farther, he fell with his face to the ground and prayed, “My Father, if it is possible, may this cup be taken from me. Yet not as I will, but as you will.”

40 Then he returned to his disciples and found them sleeping. “Couldn’t you men keep watch with me for one hour?” he asked Peter. 41 “Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.”

42 He went away a second time and prayed, “My Father, if it is not possible for this cup to be taken away unless I drink it, may your will be done.”

43 When he came back, he again found them sleeping, because their eyes were heavy. 44 So he left them and went away once more and prayed the third time, saying the same thing.

45 Then he returned to the disciples and said to them, “Are you still sleeping and resting? Look, the hour has come, and the Son of Man is delivered into the hands of sinners. 46 Rise! Let us go! Here comes my betrayer!”

 47 While he was still speaking, Judas, one of the Twelve, arrived. With him was a large crowd armed with swords and clubs, sent from the chief priests and the elders of the people. 48 Now the betrayer had arranged a signal with them: “The one I kiss is the man; arrest him.” 49 Going at once to Jesus, Judas said, “Greetings, Rabbi!” and kissed him.

 50 Jesus replied, “Do what you came for, friend.”

Then the men stepped forward, seized Jesus and arrested him. 51 With that, one of Jesus’ companions reached for his sword, drew it out and struck the servant of the high priest, cutting off his ear.

52 “Put your sword back in its place,” Jesus said to him, “for all who draw the sword will die by the sword. 53 Do you think I cannot call on my Father, and he will at once put at my disposal more than twelve legions of angels? 54 But how then would the Scriptures be fulfilled that say it must happen in this way?”

55 In that hour Jesus said to the crowd, “Am I leading a rebellion, that you have come out with swords and clubs to capture me? Every day I sat in the temple courts teaching, and you did not arrest me. 56 But this has all taken place that the writings of the prophets might be fulfilled.” Then all the disciples deserted him and fled.

Matthew 27:11-31

11Meanwhile Jesus stood before the governor, and the governor asked him, “Are you the king of the Jews?”

“You have said so,” Jesus replied.

12 When he was accused by the chief priests and the elders, he gave no answer. 13 Then Pilate asked him, “Don’t you hear the testimony they are bringing against you?” 14 But Jesus made no reply, not even to a single charge—to the great amazement of the governor.

15 Now it was the governor’s custom at the festival to release a prisoner chosen by the crowd. 16 At that time they had a well-known prisoner whose name was Jesus Barabbas. 17 So when the crowd had gathered, Pilate asked them, “Which one do you want me to release to you: Jesus Barabbas, or Jesus who is called the Messiah?” 18 For he knew it was out of self-interest that they had handed Jesus over to him.

19 While Pilate was sitting on the judge’s seat, his wife sent him this message: “Don’t have anything to do with that innocent man, for I have suffered a great deal today in a dream because of him.”

20 But the chief priests and the elders persuaded the crowd to ask for Barabbas and to have Jesus executed.

21 “Which of the two do you want me to release to you?” asked the governor.

“Barabbas,” they answered.

22 “What shall I do, then, with Jesus who is called the Messiah?” Pilate asked.

They all answered, “Crucify him!”

23 “Why? What crime has he committed?” asked Pilate.

But they shouted all the louder, “Crucify him!”

24 When Pilate saw that he was getting nowhere, but that instead an uproar was starting, he took water and washed his hands in front of the crowd. “I am innocent of this man’s blood,” he said. “It is your responsibility!”

25 All the people answered, “His blood is on us and on our children!”

26 Then he released Barabbas to them. But he had Jesus flogged, and handed him over to be crucified.

27 Then the governor’s soldiers took Jesus into the Praetorium and gathered the whole company of soldiers around him. 28 They stripped him and put a scarlet robe on him, 29 and then twisted together a crown of thorns and set it on his head. They put a staff in his right hand. Then they knelt in front of him and mocked him. “Hail, king of the Jews!” they said. 30 They spit on him, and took the staff and struck him on the head again and again. 31 After they had mocked him, they took off the robe and put his own clothes on him. Then they led him away to crucify him.

Matthew 27:36-54

36 And sitting down, they kept watch over him there. 37 Above his head they placed the written charge against him: THIS IS JESUS, THE KING OF THE JEWS.

38 Two rebels were crucified with him, one on his right and one on his left. 39 Those who passed by hurled insults at him, shaking their heads 40 and saying, “You who are going to destroy the temple and build it in three days, save yourself! Come down from the cross, if you are the Son of God!” 41 In the same way the chief priests, the teachers of the law and the elders mocked him. 42 “He saved others,” they said, “but he can’t save himself! He’s the king of Israel! Let him come down now from the cross, and we will believe in him. 43 He trusts in God. Let God rescue him now if he wants him, for he said, ‘I am the Son of God.’” 44 In the same way the rebels who were crucified with him also heaped insults on him.

45 From noon until three in the afternoon darkness came over all the land. 46 About three in the afternoon Jesus cried out in a loud voice, “Eli, Eli, lema sabachthani?” (which means “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?”).

47 When some of those standing there heard this, they said, “He’s calling Elijah.”

48 Immediately one of them ran and got a sponge. He filled it with wine vinegar, put it on a staff, and offered it to Jesus to drink. 49 The rest said, “Now leave him alone. Let’s see if Elijah comes to save him.”

50 And when Jesus had cried out again in a loud voice, he gave up his spirit.

51 At that moment the curtain of the temple was torn in two from top to bottom. The earth shook, the rocks split 52 and the tombs broke open. The bodies of many holy people who had died were raised to life. 53 They came out of the tombs after Jesus’ resurrection and went into the holy city and appeared to many people.

54 When the centurion and those with him who were guarding Jesus saw the earthquake and all that had happened, they were terrified, and exclaimed, “Surely he was the Son of God!”

Isaiah 53:4-5

4 Surely he has borne our griefs
and carried our sorrows;
yet we esteemed him stricken,
smitten by God, and afflicted.
5 But he was wounded for our transgressions;
he was crushed for our iniquities;
upon him was the chastisement that brought us peace,
and with his stripes we are healed.

title from: smitten, stricken, and afflicted by fernando ortega

newborn whippoorwills were calling from the hills – summer was a-coming in but fast; lots of daffodils were showing off their skills…

easter of 2004! o.0

they say that, ‘in spring, a man’s heart turns to love…’ :D

found this picture while looking for pictures for my gradumation senior board.  it dated back all the way to 2004! :-o

anyhoo.  happy palm sunday!

now.  a look at the intricately woven, brightly and eclectically colored, crazy design that my life carpet is turning out to be.  it’s been super busy as normal of course. except now all the more so: every single day is busy all the way up to my graduation.  you can only imagine how crazy life has been.

life has been hectic with music man rehearsals.  things are coming along nicely – we’ve done scene work and stuff already, so i feel super comfortable with my part now.

because i’ve been so busy with school, practices, and things, my guitar teacher was super sweet and let me quit my lesson book for the year and go through a beatles song book she’s letting me borrow.  that made me happy. :}

guitar practice

and hey!  all of us graduate gals found the dresses that we are going to wear for our graduation, which is a huge praise! :)  all the dresses are gorgeous and i can’t wait to wear mine. :}

the graduate gals (no hats included :)

and last weekend (at least, if i remember correctly it was last week :P) trey-boy and i went to a friend’s birthday party.  we ate yummy food (and amazing springy salad), roasted marshmallows, and the music man peoples did the ‘shipoopi’ dance to show everybody.  then we watched ‘voyage of the dawn treader’.  all around, it was an amazing, happy time. :)

bri's birthday party pics

bri's birthday party pics

bri's birthday party pics

bri's birthday party pics

bri's birthday party pics

this whole last week started off kinda nasty. between school and business, and business and school, it was rough.  oh! and our oven exploded!  …okay, so not really.  the whole front part did, though.  mama just ever so lightly bumped the handle of a cooking pot against the door of the oven and then BAM! glass shattered and it fell all over the kitchen floor.  it took awhile to clean. :P

shattered glass

everything got better though, from friday and up till today.  well, friday morning was kind of rough too, with business and all that, but we got the scrapbook material for my graduation scrapbook. :)  and then i did school and cleaned.  and then i quickly flat-ironed my hair with help from mama and borrowed her colorful hair extensions for a rock concert i was going to go to with trey-boy and johnny bravo.  we gobbled down some supper and headed off to ‘sunshine studios’, a really big concrete building that shook none the less when the music was loud and rocking.  i fixed my friend’s hair for the show (it turned out really well too! :).  they did phenomenally well and the violin made ‘steadfast’ the coolest band out of all four.

the following day trey and i went to the WIC day away at church (trey was helping. :P).  the lesson was on discontentment; mrs. wilson covered everything i needed to hear.  needless to say, God really spoke to me through her that morning. :)  then i went straight from there to spend the night with my hanza wanza! :D  her sister, katherine, came over to hang out for the evening too. :)  we made chai cream pie (YUM!) and watched star wars episodes three and two (and yes, in that order.  we figured we needed to watch something with a happy ending after watching the third one which happens to be incredibly depressing no matter how epic it is).

and this afternoon, after church, we celebrated daddy’s **rd birthday. ;) happy birthday, daddy! <3

happy birthday!

*phew* so.  i hope y’all enjoyed this small peek at my life.  now.  off to other things…

title from: that sunday, that summer by nat king cole

it’s not the age-old mystery we made it out to be; yeah, there’s a problem with the world, and the problem with the world is me

title from: the problem by downhere

i am i, you are you, we are we; we could live in such harmony

wait

by russell kelfer

Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried;
Quietly, patiently, lovingly, God replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate . . .
And the Master so gently said, “Wait.”

“Wait? you say wait?” my indignant reply.
“Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!
Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard?
By faith I have asked, and I’m claiming your Word.

“My future and all to which I relate
Hangs in the balance, and you tell me to wait?
I’m needing a ‘yes’, a go-ahead sign,
Or even a ‘no’ to which I can resign.

“You promised, dear Lord, that if we believe,
We need but to ask, and we shall receive.
And Lord I’ve been asking, and this is my cry:
I’m weary of asking! I need a reply.”

Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate,
As my Master replied again, “Wait.”
So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut,
And grumbled to God, “So, I’m waiting for what?”

He seemed then to kneel, and His eyes met with mine . . .
and He tenderly said, “I could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens and darken the sun.
I could raise the dead and cause mountains to run.

“I could give all you seek and pleased you would be.
You’d have what you want, but you wouldn’t know Me.
You’d not know the depth of my love for each saint.
You’d not know the power that I give to the faint.

“You’d not learn to see through clouds of despair;
You’d not learn to trust just by knowing I’m there.
You’d not know the joy of resting in Me
When darkness and silence are all you can see.

“You’d never experience the fullness of love
When the peace of My spirit descends like a dove.
You would know that I give, and I save, for a start,
But you’d not know the depth of the beat of My heart.

“The glow of my comfort late into the night,
The faith that I give when you walk without sight.
The depth that’s beyond getting just what you ask
From an infinite God who makes what you have last.

“You’d never know, should your pain quickly flee,
What it means that My grace is sufficient for thee.
Yes, your dearest dreams overnight would come true,
But, oh, the loss, if you missed what I’m doing in you.

“So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see
That the greatest of gifts is to truly know me.
And though oft My answers seem terribly late,
My most precious answer of all is still . . . Wait.”

title from: harmony by never shout never

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